free yourself

Working, going to school, and maintaining a household can be very stressful on the human body, mind and soul, because of this we must find ways to escape. Granted everyone deals with stress in different ways and what works for one person may not work for the other. “In what time?”, you may ask, and the answer is simple, anyplace anytime it takes 15 minutes. Unwinding and relaxing can be as simple as tying your shoes once you get the hand of it. None of us have time for yoga and waking up two hours early to jog will just add to our stress level. Meditating while taking a shower can be an simple, fast and easy method of relaxing. All you have to do is relax your body, shoulders down, begin to feel weightless, close your eyes, clear your mind, and say “AAHHH, OOHHH, UUH,MMM,NNN” and repeat until you feel completely relaxed. Though it may sound odd this method was taught to my mother by a chinese acupuncturist and doctor, I remember being little and hearing her in the shower. It was not until I was older that I asked her about the method and I began to use it. So far I have found it very effective. 

Little Miss Nice didn’t think twice before giving out some good advice. People came from everywhere always had something share. She was there, always cared to listen while the crowd would stare. What is she? Some kind of queen, of righteousness within the obscene. She’s always right, she’ll do no wrong the heavy crown she wore too long. Until one day she went insane, the pressure is the one to blame. No longer kind, not even sweet, the world was incomplete.

I don’t wanna be good
I want to be great,
I don’t want to be average I want to be extraordinary, I don’t want to be comfortable
I want to be successful
so why can’t I?
Why can’t I find the motivation
the push
the strength
that thrive,
I have the hunger
but not the dedication
I’m too afraid of the end
Afraid of failure
Afraid of debt
The loss, emptiness, nothingness

Although I was never the fat kid targeted by flying balls during dodge ball personal education was always a weakness of mine. I remember running two to three laps daily and always tripping on my shoelaces. My teacher thought I was lazy and assumed I wasn’t receiving the proper nutrition, but failed to ask me why I was so distracted. A proper diet was not an issue, but my curiosity was the problem. I would daydream during my runs, and contemplate who I was in this world and why I was here. The teacher was not to blame after all who would think a ten year old would be so deep into his/her thoughts. Now almost a decade has passed and I have yet to answer my own questions. Who am I? Why am I here? A scientist may explain the reason of the human being and the importance of man in this planet. A preacher may suggest the teachings of the bible. A politician will convince you the importance of the people in our country. Although all have valid points that is a question that we can only answer for ourselves. Some people live their lives searching for a special someone to share it with, while others dedicate their time to themselves and their careers and perhaps some will never know. 

I love writting, it comes easy, it’s soothing, I can easily express my feelings in different words everytime and eventually capture someones heart and soul. Numbers in the other hand are useless to me, other than money ofcourse, numbers are a waste of time for a person like me. Admittedly I am guilty of being the stubborn teenager in the back row of the classroom arguing with the proffesor that functions are not used in the real world. Four years later, although I learn never to argue with a professor my mentality has yet to change. Someone please prove to me how I will ever need math in my profession in broadcasting and journalism and I will pick up a book and start to teach!

Regardless of wether we need it or not, like many things in life we have to struggle with it. It’s not even about learning anymore, it’s personal and for the last time math will not prevail. No one said it’s easy, only easy thing in life is giving up!

Perhaps there is reason as to why some capture our hearts forever. Irreplaceable inevitable bonds are created from the simplest of actions.  The fact is there are two types of people in our lives those who we let into our lives and those we don’t; who we let into our lives is entirely up to our own self judgment.